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Battling Mental Health

 I have been very quite about my mental health struggles. I simply have no other resources to get help at the moment. The reason why my mental health is well to put it simply, broken for the past two months. Is from my struggling relationship with my partner. I have been putting in a lot of effort to keep it together, both myself and the relationship. How ever my partner is not, and I cannot get a explanation from them. This situation is what has broken me. I am mentally drained and my mind is sailing at sea in no direction. Numbers: P/U 13624 S/U 13520 Forms H/W 195/197 Sparring 63 AoK 382 Km 613.28km Blogs 10

Skeleton speed and Six Harmonies

This will be about my current understanding of the six harmonies and skeleton speed. The goal of this is to draw conversation between into our own understanding of these two concepts. I’m not going to go too in depth as I want to explain my thoughts in a simple but practical manner. Skeleton Speed  To me this represents the reaction of the muscular skeletal and nervous system. This has to happen first before anything else as nothing be faster than our own nervous system. And example of this is when we slide step forward and punch or an application in class. Without even thinking about it our body reacts, engaging the muscles in the most efficient way and the technique begins.  Six harmonies  After skeleton speed has started and the technique begins for the first 150-250 milliseconds. Our brain now reacts to the nervous system and has to figure out which limbs need to finish first, middle and last. Along with what needs to accelerate faster than the rest in order to finish...

I am Still Here

I know I have fallen off the radar. I would not be impressed with my progress if I was one of my peers. I will sum up my falling off with a copy paste of a text message I sent to one of my friends when they asked why I have basically gone awol.  "I’m just scared that nothing is going to work out for me no matter how hard I keep working to improve and it’s keeping me from trying now" Numbers P/U 8837 S/U 8657 Forms H/W 152/146 Sparring 53 AoK 297 Km 416.03km  Blogs 8

Tiger Challenge(s)

 I really enjoyed this years Tiger Challenge. Going into it I was nervous. I had never judged before and to be frank I had never judged anything performance related either ever. I was nervous and started to second guess my own abilities as a brand new black belt. Do I know enough to be competent to judge? That was the main question I kept asking myself. Eventually I asked some other judges who had plenty of experience and they all gave me the same answer. Trust your head judge and yourself. It was reassuring to hear the same advice from multiple people. I also did my bed to mentally disconnect from “knowing” the form and tried to watch each student as if I had never seen the form before. That helped a lot as I could focus more on what I should be expecting from these student at their level, rather than viewing it as someone who knows what the form should be.  Overall I really enjoyed the judging. And the support we had this year was really good and I think this was one of the ...

Shifting

It has taken me a lot of time to figure out how I wanted to write this blog. I know my effort and accountability so far this year has been atrochise in my opinion. I'm not setting the example I should be as a martial artist, let alone a black belt who has committed to following the code of ethics and has been in a mastery program for 3 years continuously. It is embarrassing honestly. I have completed on of the most important goals in my life. So why am I struggling to take things further now? I believe I needed to recover. Simply to just rest after all the strain and effort I put on my mind and body. Now is this a pretty lame excuse for my "progress" this year so far? For someone reading this who is not an athlete, martial artist, or accomploished one of their goals. No, because rest is needed. But to someone who has been through and accomplished things, yes this is a pretty boring reason since it represents mediocrity as I could have been progressing better by simply cha...

Kindness

 I was in a family owned convenience store on Tuesday grabbing a couple of snacks before I hit the road for work. It was around 10:30 in the morning but I was still feeling a bit tired even though I had a pretty good sleep the night before, around 7 hours, so pretty good as I keep making more room to add more time into my sleep schedule. Anyways I was just about to pay for my snacks, and the lady running the store insisted I should grab a coffee for free. I personally do not like to have anything given to me for free as it feels unnatural. I tried to reject her offer but she kept insisting and eventually I said I will grab my free coffee. So there I am pouring the coffee into the corrugated cup when suddenly the lady hands me a container of hazelnut creamer.  This creamer is from her private stash that she uses to make her own coffees well she is working here. Funny enough it is the same creamer I use at home for my coffees. It was eerie that she just so happened to have the e...

Priorities

 I had a one on one last week and I have been taking the time since than to review and go through each priority of my life and figure out where they all sit if I ranked them from most important to "still important but not the most". I did not want to use the word "least" as that was not my intention.  Health - This includes, sleep, diet, along with both my mental and physical health. The order I listed these topics in is also how I view them to be in order of importance. I cannot have anything else unless my sleep is good and the food I am eating are healthy. This causes everything else on this to benefit.  Kung Fu - I went back and forth with putting this at number 2 or 3. Ultimately it gets put in the number 2 position. I had a mental "click" after my one on one. Kung fu is supposed to help us achieve mastery. So why am I not putting more effort into my kung fu? BECAUSE I DID NOT UNDERSTAND IT UNTIL AFTER MY ONE ON ONE. I do not need to go to every level...